Day 31: things are cold and numb…. i cannot feel much part of my boy after the news i just heard, i feel faint and hollow…. my eyes are closing… im about to fade….

ambiental music

Day 30: bright blue skies, filled with white doves everywhere, smoke above with the smell of tobacco and mint , holy choirs singing the Ave maria so joyfully….i must be in heaven, i guess i did not make it, i sit up on the large prairie so green and bright, that even the greatest gardens on earth would not compare… y take a long puff on my cigarette as i admire the greatness of this place, happiness fills the air, i cant remember how sadness feels, even though i am alone and my family is not with me i do not feel sadness, i guess im here because i tried my best to protect my family.. i stand up and feel the breeze run trough my face, it feels like nothing i felt before, i walk around enjoying the freedom, the seldom feeling of being home, i run and see great masterpieces made into gardens….this must be the garden of eden, everything is perfect……simply perfect…. too perfect…. no…… this cannot be, i cant leave my people alone, they need me….

Mysterious voice: hello my child, welcome to your new home..

Me: What….. who…are you.

Mysterious voice: It doesn’t matter anymore, you are home now, your efforts and feelings towards saving your family and friends and your own kind got you here, it is your own personal paradise, a place where sorrow is not known, where pain is just a myth and the feeling of acceptance,comfort and happiness is all around you.

Me: But… where is my family?

Mysterious voice: Unfortunately your family will not come here, those struck by the wrath of the all mighty will not see the light ever again. you did not die because of the wrath, you died for a noble cause and by natural ways…

Me: What!!!, but this is not what i want, i want to be with them forever… in heaven, hell or in the nothingness, but with them…(suddenly the feeling of sorrow came to me….)

Mysterious voice: my son, i am your family now, your life is here now… you are not needed anymore in earth. you are needed here..

Me: No!!!!!! i want my family.

I could not handle the shock of never seeing my family ever again, nothing, but just vague memories of them.. i started to run to nowhere in hope of leaving that place… but nothing, my efforts where futile. i was stuck in my own personal heaven, that for me it was my personal hell…

Mysterious voice: My son, you cannot change what it is, everything is written, this is your destiny… and if you cant wake up…. then just wake up..

Those words started to make no sense…

Mysterious voice: Angel… please wake up… please come back.. please dont go…

The voice changed and everything was changing, the garden was turning black and everything was coming down…. i felt a big earthquake, and the floor started to crack, it felt unnecessary to run.. i just let myself fall into the abyss… maybe this was the only way to go to my family…

I opened my eyes, and before my was a woman… crying in my chest… my chest wrapped with bandage.. i tried to talk but the words could not come out, i tried to move my arm but it would not move either… the girl raised her head and looked at how i was staring at her with glooming eyes…. dazed and confused, she got up in a hurry and started to yell that i awoke…

Everybody came to see me and most of them where happy that i was still alive. Tears of joy and joyful expressions mostly around.. mother, brothers, and some friends came to wander at my awakening.. 

Me: hello everybody, im glad to see all of you, i had this crazy dream in witch all hell broke loose and people where dying everywhere, and i died and went to heaven and oh my god it was a horrible dream, im glad its all a dream, now can somebody please tell me what happened to me i cannot remember.

Cesar: we are so glad that you are alive and with us…. unfortunately. it was not a dream its all real.. 

Me: what!..

my voice broke down as my hopes for it to be all but a dream where chattered…

Cesar: after you and your friends did your best to get supplies to provide for us… well you came like this, a huge bullet wound to your shoulder, you lost an intense amount of blood… we though you died.. but they noticed you where alive just not waking up so we decided to take care of you for how long as nessesary

Me: What!!!…(i begin to cry…) thank you.. where is everybody where is my dad!!!!

Cesar: unfortunately after you got into a coma state we tried to follow your plan and make the safe place so we could all live peacefully for some time, and yes we are doing it now, but….. your father gave his life for our well being…

Me:no……….no….NO!!!!!! father…

i could barely talk with all the tears raining down from my eyes..

Cesar: im sorry.. but because of him we are safe, he did it to save you, to do what you most fought for this time, he did it for you…

Me:………

Cesar: he loved you very much and you should be proud oh what he did we all are…

i could not handle the news… because of me my father passed away… we may had some differences, but he was one of the greatest people i had the pleasure to meet, and to call him my father made me very proud. i just hope i had the courage and the time to have told him that…….

I wonder………….

Day 9: Today….. Is the big day, this is the day we make the difference, we make a stand we fight for our future…

i got up in the morning and typical routine, im bored of it already but i must do it, but there is a big difference i got up at 3 am horrible, at 4 am everybody was here, and they where ready to work, to fight and beyond all ready to die.

we suited up, we grabbed our gear and radios, everything to be ready, and we went to the truck.

in the way we where talking some interesting themes, it went like this

Wally: “i have a question for all of you, obviously this came unexpected, and well, i wanted to know what do you want to do before you die, what was the thing you most enjoyed in life, what did you love the most?”

Chris: “Whoa your saying this like we are going to die today”

Me: “you never know, it is my intention, that way if i live well i have the big satisfaction oh being alive (and i smiled)”

Zareth: “thats a weird and sad way to think about this mission”

Me: ” Well yes, you can say its sad because i am expecting failure, but i always thought like that, for examples with girls, always look for the NO, that way the more No’s you get the closer to the Yes you will be”

Jesus: “But, in this case you got only one chance, so if you get a NO, its over for good”

ME:”Yea i know, thats what gets me pumped up for this, i actually have something to loose.”

Harlan: “Your a sick son of a bitch man like always”

Me:”Hells yea ese.”

well we chit chatted a little bit more about things we loved and so on, no need to bore you with small details, we got to the militia base and our mission was about to start, it was 4:45 am….15 minutes more and we are ready to go, we tried to relax and think of the things that got us going, we turned on the radio and listened to bohemian rhapsody, its just a great song to rock out all in the car, obviously in a low volume, after the head-banging session, it was time, we got out and started our mission…

Ok so we went all out together at first, it was quiet….. to quiet, not a sign of life anywhere, sometimes silence is the worst sound of them all. we hiked for a good 2 miles and nothing….. nothing at all, it was break out point, everybody to their different stations, as everybody was going, the 3 of us headed north to our stations, we walked a bit and constantly communicating by radio, Zareth was at his point, and wally as well, we waited for them to look around, and we heard them say

Zareth: “The armory seems clear, but i do see some undead walking around about a good 150 undead by our side”

Wally: ” My side is also clear and i see a lot of undead as well, wow, easily  about 200, wait… i see something, they are all RUNNING at something, they all run!”

us: ” Holy shit”

Zareth: “I see it too, wait, they are about 5 jeeps coming this way, and they are shooting at the zombies, they are all distracted now is your chance the path is clear”

So as soon as we heard that we ran to the armory, screw the plan we all went together, we got out of the forest and saw the building and all of the undead running towards the jeeps with mounted machine guns, we got to the door and no one saw us, we broke the lock and went in, there was not much as we hoped but it would work, inside we all began to fill backpacks with ammo and  small guns, and put a couple of big guns as well, when we where collecting something moved, near to Chris side, we all pointed a gun, we got close to it.

Harlan: “Dude shoot it”

Me: ” No!, we will get caught, lets just let it be we don’t want to know”

as soon as we turned around a Runner tried to attack harlan, the zombie knocked him down and we instantly tried to get it away, we pushed it and decapitated it, 

Harlan: ” Oh my fucking god that fucker came out of nowhere”

Chris: ” Did it bite you, are you wounded”

Harlan: “Oo he missed, thank you guys”

Me: ” Ok this is getting to dangerous lets get the things and get out of here”

Wally: “People, they are coming your way, get out of there fast”

Me:” Roger that, you guys go ahead and regroup we will meet you in the extraction”

after we go out of there, we ran like hell, and the cars saw us and shot us with blind-fire, we never ran that fast in our lives, unfortunately, one of the stranded bullets hit me in the right shoulder.

Me: ” Fuck! im hit!!!!!”

Chris: ” Angel, you ok can you walk?”

Me: ” Yea ill be fine don;t worry just run!, if necessary leave me behind”

What pained me the most is that they did not even think about it, they where willing to leave me behind, but its ok i guess.

as we went down that horrible path, we where making to much noise, and we attracted unwanted visitors, undead…. we crossed path with about 30, we killed the ones we could and the rest we just ran away. some of us fell down in the slopes, and got hurt, but we made it all the way down.

Our driver wasn’t there!, we radioed him, and nothing, we thought we where goners, and i was injured and by fall so was Chris, we ran for about ten minutes since we had no choice, and finally Jesus showed up, i said things i never thought i would say but for the least i was happy we showed up.

we hurried home and they tried to heal me on the way, there was not much to do it did a pretty big hole and i was in shock, the tried everything to stop the bleeding, fortunately i foresaw this and packed some meds to stop bleeding for a while, i still lost a lot of blood, i was weak and dizzy, i mumbled some words and i passed out….

Day 8: Today is the big day…… if we make this… we have a high chance of surviving… lets hope we can do this..

ok so i got up and did the same thing, do not want to bore the people that would read this, coffee, tobacco, exercise so on, so it was about 7 am and everybody came to my house to do a plan.

so this is how it went:

Me: “Ok its time to do this, as you all know there is a militia base close by, its just like 5 minutes from here, it is hidden in a mountain/forest, so there is a lot of cover but there is also a lot of risk of encountering the undead.”

Jesus added:”Is there still people there” me: “well i don’t really know, i was there the first day and i know they have weapons and everything but i do not know all i know is that they wont give it to us just by asking”

Zareth: “What if we say please?” Me:” hahahaha i doubt it, but it would be great if it was that simple, now this will be very difficult being that we don’t have any professional training, BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING WALLY, no you do not have special training, and your animal planet skills wont work here, so we will all take the weapons i made for us, bows, arrows, lances, knifes, and darts with heavy rat poison, we have to be as stealthy as possible.”

Chris: “Ok, sound good, but how will we divide or something, do you have a map?” me: fortunately we have google earth and yes i have the map and ratio around it, so we should be fine as long as we follow the map.”

after that i pulled out my map, i marked the important places of the map and with different colors the position of each

Me: ” Ok, we have 6 people in total, we will need 3 infiltrating, 2 surveilling and a driver, any volunteers for the 3 people?” ……. no response, Me: “ok then i guess i get to choose for all of us, ok, Harlan, Chris and me will infiltrate, Zareth and Wally will keep the look out, and Jesus will be our driver, so take a look at this map people to indicate each position.”

Me: “ok so this is it, i know its a bit improvised but it should work, ok this is how it goes, the pink squares is where i know if they are people they will be concentrated there, the pink squares with black are objectives we should avoid but if necessary then eliminate, ok the light green circle should be our driver, he should drop us off and pick us up there, Jesus it is your job to keep a low profile and make sure we get there and come back in once piece, ok the yellow line is the best route to take going up, it seems to be their blind spot and the shortest way to go, also we should go together until that point, after that the blue lines indicate where the watchers will go, Zareth and Wally, Zareth you take left and try to keep quite and hide, Wally same for you but go right, it is both of your jobs to make sure the way is clear and radio us in case of anything, you will be our eyes, the orange points are the rest of us, the infiltrators, we should remain together until the point that says in the map to split up, it is not as far as it seems, it is our job to get in, take the guns and ammo and get out in one piece, and the Red cross, well X marks the spot, and the green trail is our emergency route, is the fastest way, and the navy green is the point of no return is there is still some people there, after that line, they will see us no matter what and we will die…, ok now, Jesus take a gun just in case, Wally and zareth, take your bows arrows and darts, and a rifle just in case, and the rest of us, knifes, axes, our shurikens, and guns, reminder, any firearms should be avoided, just use in case of emergencies, take the radios, and any questions?

Juan:” what about me, you did not put me in the plan”, Me: ” Ah yes, simple, you must stay here and make sure everybody is okay! and prepare supplies for when we move”

Juan: ok sounds reasonable”, Wally:”what if we don’t know how to use a bow and such” Me: “Ah good question, well, we have the whole day to practice our skills, we practice here for a while, then we go zombie hunting for target practice”

“Anything else?” well everybody was good and comfortable with the plan, so we dedicated the whole day to practice and getting ready for tomorrow

before they left i said “ok people remember tomorrow we strike at 0500 hours, get ready cause this will be tough, people or no people, the undead will be everywhere,  this will be hard, we may die, but its for our families… for a future, so be prepared, for the best and for the worst… take care”

after that small speech they all left with in-tranquility in their eyes, they seem worried, but they also had something that is most dear to a man…. hope…

this me alive… day 8 and still going… logging off.